REPOSTING THIS IN HONOR OF MY MOTHERS 80TH BIRTHDAY:
Forgiving my mother was the greatest gift I have ever received.
Forgiving my mother was the greatest gift I have ever received.
Not just imagined slights, words misunderstood or minor
infractions every parent commits. I had
real, serious emotional and physical injury inflicted. Mental, physical and sexual abuse. Neglect.
Spiritual abuse.
The day I forgave her every single bit without regret,
without holding back, I also received forgiveness. I forgave myself for the little child who
didn’t know better. I forgave myself the
pain and hurt I’d inflicted on myself over the years as a result. I forgave myself for the thick, horrible
walls I’d built trying to protect myself, which had only isolated me from much
of the world, and kept me from relationships that might have been, if I’d been
emotionally healthier.
I forgave myself for the parenting mistakes I made, the
tense manner in which I raised my children and the fear I’d held onto that
stole so much of my young adulthood.
One day, there came the right time to tell my mother that
she was forgiven.
What happened next was nothing short of miraculously amazing.
All those years I’d let unforgiveness fester, thinking SHE
didn’t deserve it, or that I couldn’t forgive until she asked forgiveness. The day I told her I had completely forgiven
her (a good number of years ago now) is the day she actually asked me to
forgive her. It’s the day she owned
every rotten horrid thing that had occurred and tearfully asked me to forgive
her. She had a little trouble believing
I had already forgiven her years before.
But since I already had, fully and without reservation years ago, that
was the day true healing took place.
Not
slowly. Not over time. Immediate.
God healed me as completely as I’d forgiven Mom.
Mom and I began to build a loving
relationship from that very moment. In a
few very short years, it became the strong mother daughter relationship I’d
always longed for.
God healed me. God healed her. And God healed us.
You think whatever was done to you, whatever slight was
perpetrated against you just can’t be forgiven.
I’m telling you it’ll be the most awesome gift you will ever
receive; to forgive others, and really, truly give it over to the Lord. Vengeance is mine, says the Lord, I will
repay. You know the forgiveness is true
and complete the day you ask God to forgive that person or persons, and withhold
vengeance from them.
It will be the most freeing day of your life!
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