In Acts 2:42 we read:
And they continued steadfastly in the apostles' doctrine and fellowship, in the breaking of bread and in prayers.
43: then fear came upon every soul and many signs and wonders were done through the apostles.
We need to stop right here and ask the question "what is the apostles doctrine?" In the verses preceding we are provided with that answer in Peters sermon.
Jesus is Lord, raised from the dead by God for our redemption
Repent of sin and be baptized as a symbol of new life
Receive the gift of the Holy Spirit
It all begins with an act of God (GOD, in the beginning created the Heavens and the earth) which has direct consequences upon us, His creation. We respond to this action, because God created us specifically for His pleasure and to respond to His actions (God said Let Us make man in Our image according to Our likeness, let THEM have dominion over...). Dependent on our response there is then the receiving of Gods blessings (for by grace you've been saved, not of works lest any man should boast).
As you read through the bible you will find this pattern established and we are encouraged to follow it, for by doing so we reap the many blessings and benefits God intends for His creation, stolen by that serpent the devil, satan our enemy who because of PRIDE fell and pulled and continues to pull many down with him.
Awe and wonder of the Lord God opens the eyes of our hearts, allowing us to see the miracles of God. It isn't that OUR faith brings about miracles - this has been an error taught too long in our churches. As if healing or miracles would occur IF we believe enough, or have faith enough. This makes God dependent upon us - not so! The truth is that God is always moving, always blessing and caring for and tending to His sheep, but our eyes are darkened, unable to see those miracles and blessings and joys.
Receiving His gift of Eternal Life through Christ Jesus our Lord, by confessing the truth that Jesus is the Lord, responding to that truth by believing in our hearts that God raised Jesus from the dead after He gave Himself as the substitute sacrifice for OUR sins and by the GRACE of God being filled with the Holy Spirit gives us the sight to see those miracles, see those blessings and live in the JOY that God the Creator and Master of all the Heavens, Earth and Creatures He created intended us to live in. Praise God from Whom ALL blessings flow!
I encourage you to pick up the Bible, open to the Book of Acts and begin to read. I pray God will give you new insight and then the courage to LIVE as He intended you to live - VICTORIOUS through Christ Jesus our Lord! Sure, you are weak and your flesh is selfish and sinful. Certainly you don't have all the right thoughts and feelings all the time toward everyone. None of us does. BUT, as we submit to the Holy Spirit, somehow God grants the grace we need to overcome, to speak in ways that bless, to act in ways that honor Him and many wonders and signs will be done through His born again Sons and Daughters!